Editor’s musings

Well, heartfelt greetings after a long hiatus from this site for me!

I had the opportunity to go away and work outside Tokyo for three months, and I did so, and utterly neglected this website while gone.  Hope you didn’t worry about us, we’re quite well!

Things are in flux here, however, as they are across the entire planet, still… we’ve decided to distinguish the residents of this little community from the workings of the non-profit business, Divine Tools, Unlimited, just this week in fact, so the impact of that has yet to gel and to trickle down into anything describe-able yet.

But in the short term, it seems safe to say that we are not functioning as anything like an Ashram at this time, and apparently have no real vision to do so, at least not among the group we currently have living here.  This is a sadness for me, but it is just the reality of what has existed for the past three years anyway, so not a surprise, just an acknowledgement.

We will go back to calling ourselves the Desert Monastery & Retreat, at least for now, as it captures the limited availability of a few guest cabins and the creation of a few group-use spaces.  How these will be used will be developed in the months to come.  We are getting some new Trustees, and I expect this will energize the few who remain on the Board to dream and envision great things for our little place in the months and years ahead.

Hope 12/21/12 wasn’t just a hiccup for you – that you sense the great, deep shifts that are indeed taking place within and around us all.  And I look forward to a new venue to reach out to you in the days to come.

Namaste, Beloveds…

Time certainly slips away, doesn’t it?

I was working out of state for most of October, an opportunity which came up quickly & unexpectedly, so I’m sorry about there being no post for last month, but here it is already nearly Thanksgiving!  I want to say this is evidence of the shift in time awareness and consciousness, but it might just be feeling too distracted to be attentive to previously-strong patterns… and might these be the same thing??

Not many changes the past two months except that its gotten colder, and I have once again become the non-profit’s President by Board vote at our annual meeting.  We are in such a null-state here in the Autumn and Winter that it seems we have hibernated once again, and it will likely be March before the energy surges again to make plans and announce events to be held here.  We might have a long-term WWOOFer coming the end of the week, and I might travel out of country with my contracting work, but otherwise we have several gatherings going on to celebrate harvest time, also the 11th Gate Activation happening in Peru (we’ll have a tiny Anchor Group in the labyrinth Thursday), and then we do the slow slide into Winter.

What I’m gently excited about is the coming winter solstice and the culmination of many shifts, transitions and transformations happening the past couple of years in the galaxy, in our solar system, on our planet, and in our individual and collective bodies and consciousnesses.  What a ride it has been!  I am so content to be still and quiet for now, to feel it all, to ponder it all, and to be present for it all.

And while I had imagined there would be great, heaving events, they have been modulated to seem not so heaving, and more undulating… so the notion that there would be a point in time when things would Stop. and Start again. now seems unlikely, and that’s probably a very good thing – certainly there are disruptions in the lives of those in the NE of the country affected by ‘Superstorm Sandy’ and its sequels, and as I write this Israel & Pakistan are lobbing missiles at each other.  But there seems to be a blanket of calm or normalcy over everything, as if nothing is going to blast out too crazily for all of us as a whole, and continue to be affecting us on a regional, local, and individual level.  That will facilitate our development of communities, which is as it needs to be.  Blessings to each of you, and to your endeavors for the coming months.  May peace settle over all the Earth, and may we become enlightened to the spiritual-divine that underlies all things.  Namaste…

It seems as though we are hanging in the balance (if we are lucky in the moment!), or being tossed between the rails of duality (if we are not yet good at detachment from external events and ‘noise’), and yet perhaps not actually ‘getting anywhere.’  This is true… we are still practicing being really IN our bodies, and living there, and learning there is nowhere else to go or to be.  This can be discombobulating at best, and seem harsh and even dangerous at its worst.  The good news is that nothing is happening that you can’t handle.  The bad news is that you may not yet realize how true that is, and thus you may indulge in the drama or the appearance of drama.  We are still being shown the places and ideas we harbor that carry attachments to the old, worn-out paradigm, until we get good at letting go and trusting.  Please get good at that – the letting go & trusting parts.

The second thing that’s in our faces is the speeding-up of the material manifestation of our thoughts, seeing what our feelings used to keep hidden emerge or happen before our very eyes.  Time as we have known it has quickened so that the lag time is much-diminished – this is lesson-time, folks; its what the 5th dimension is all about, so don’t fight it; instead: get good at it.  We are all being called to stop holding or generating negative pictures and feelings, because as Creators, that’s what we’ll get.  And I’m not talking about ‘affirmations’ – although we are seeing the reality behind why those were on the spiritual path – but rather the everyday, moment-to-moment thoughts and ideas, feelings and emotions we have long been taught were invisible and of little external importance.

More and more, for example, we are being shown how our beliefs have created our daily context, such as illnesses and diseases, and how releasing old patterns can make us whole, when we believe we are.  And we are being encouraged to actively imagine what we desire, what brings us peace and joy and that wonderful sense of ‘well-being’ that makes Life worth living through all the muck.  Because what we focus on – what we visualize in our minds & hearts – will be generated for us, out of the stuff of the Universe!

This is all excellent news, IF we tune into it and live it.

If you are having difficulty controlling your thoughts… if old, negative ‘tapes’ still play as you go through your day, telling you what a jerk you were or how no one likes you, etc… then that’s what you’ll get to experience, in spades.  We are supposed to keep doing it until we get so fed up with it that we stop from exhaustion, if necessary – whatever it takes – until we stop, and become aware and conscious, and then become intentional.  Whew!

And in light of how much more Light and advancement potential we are being showered with on a daily basis now, the ‘resistance’ (where it exists) is pressing hard against making any retreat, so 3D things will continue to heat up, appearance-wise, for som time still.  Get used to it, but don’t get worn out by it.

Spend your time, instead, being aware of what is so beautiful, and right, and delightful around you, in this moment, and this one… and acknowledge that you are largely co-creating this beauty and rightness with your thoughts and emotions.  Msking choices.  In every moment.  Time as we have known it IS changing, forever.  Thanks, God.

And for those who want to know what’s going on here at the Ashram: I have been painting all the guest cabins – yes, everyone is getting a facelift, eventually – and bringing more color and joy to the environment.  For years we have gone with a goldenrod & green color theme, but no longer!  And there is some attention on putting up insulation and wallboard inside, although that project moves more slowly, but its getting done….

There was a spurt of construction activity at the Abode to get the new houseplant greenhouse framed, and the rafters now soar invitingly; however, construction funds ran out and it awaits new infusions of manual labor, hopefully to be done before the first freeze.  It will also be a great place for growing salad greens over the winter, I hope.  And the transformation of our former bedroom into the Retreat Center dining room has begun – we’ve decided to rip up the carpet and install a tile floor, so wish me luck in that project.  All in all, things are looking very good for us being open for  guests in 2013, so much so that I have announced an Open House for Saturday, Sept. 22, to celebrate our 10th anniversary as a married couple, the 7th anniversary of the Retreat Center, and to observe the Balance point of the Autumnal Equinox and the winding down of this year of transformation into the Fall & harvest season (for us in the Northern Hemisphere)… and there might be a full moon in there, too.  If you’re in the vicinity, you’re welcome to come join in the potluck that begins at 4 pm and goes as long as we want it to.  But just in case all the insulation hasn’t been covered yet, don’t plan on using a cabin, OK?   🙂

Remarkable!  The third quarter of this year has arrived – who knew what this would look like or feel like, eh?

For myself, it is a lot more, and also a lot less ‘fulfilled’ than what I had imagined – I’ll just admit that openly. The ‘lot more’ has to do with what we’ve accomplished on the premises this year – a productive onion garden, a greenhouse full of houseplants and last year’s surviving & yummy tomatoes, new garden beds, the Abode of the Divine Feminine nearly complete (with outbuildings coming along – such big ideas!), the cabins have facelifts and look like big colorful jelly beans scattered around the place!  One of the 6 cabins has been commandeered (by me) for use as the new Office of the non-profit and the Desert Monastery et al. the various activity & project titles – it feels right to have a separate space for all of that, and makes the Main House a lot neater, too.

Speaking of the Main House, what a transformation it is undergoing!  As Kevin & I move out into our own personal spaces, we have freed up our old bedroom for the new Dining Area, which will have seating for 10-14 folks – that will be way more comfortable for our guests and for our community potlucks, just in time for the Fall/Winter season of celebrations.  That means the current eating area becomes the buffet service line, and that opens the kitchen a lot, which we’ll all enjoy.  With the Library completed, and the ‘back room’ that was part office-part storage now the sewing room (at least for this winter), everything we own seems to have changed places at least once this summer!  What all this activity has lacked in sociability and events on-site for the 2012 season, I expect will be amply made up for over many years of operation ahead, and with more ease & comfort!

This month marks an important watershed for Kevin & I, as well as the property: our 10th anniversary is in two weeks!  We’ve discussed holding our annual Open House now, at the end of the season (instead of the usual April/Earth Day date), on Saturday the 22nd from 4-6 in the afternoon, and offering tours of the new Labyrinth and the Main House, if we can just get a few more things done by then!  Stop by in any case, and forgive us if we are still under construction, OK?  But the more important ‘watershed’ is the direction and intention for this property… will we offer classes in 2013 and beyond? or retreat opportunities? Is there interest and economic will to travel to our remote location from places far afield, or have folks hunkered down and choosing to stay home?  These are issues for the whole community to contemplate, and I will post in the months ahead as decisions are made and openings created for you to visit us.  What choices are you considering lately, and what changes do these represent in your reality since the beginning of this year? Since 3 years ago, or five?  Hmmm…

We had a visitor recently who said she had studied us from miles away, during the past several years, and now (being in the vicinity) she brought her large heart and soul ideas’ energy for what could be accomplished here… her vibrant excitement was a breath of fresh air for me, but it all seemed [sadly] out of sync with our Now, something out of our past iteration(s).  That has given me much to consider – has the formative dream that created this place died, or just taken a sabattical?  What will emerge from this fallow period of 2012?  I am as interested to see what comes next as you are, no doubt, and far less certain of how it will look & feel – here, and in our greater world – than I have ever been before.  I consider this place – this experiment in eco-village – to be a microcosm of a far larger movement, the groundswell of hope and optimism that thrives beneath the surface appearance of our society.  Literally no one now knows what the future holds – and that is downright uncomfortable for the average American, I suspect; perhaps for the average human being.  Living in this transformative time, during the transition between the old paradigm and the New… well, its unpredictable, and that is just how it is as we enter the time of Balance once again – the seasonal time when the length of the day shrinks to draw even with the length of the night.  May this Equinox be the tipping point into the New – I, for one, am certainly ready (I think)!  Be well… Namaste

Wow! This is a very powerful summer, yet the shift remains to many so extremely subtle that they can still report in public that nothing seems different… really?!  This is the nature of the disconnect between the 3rd dimension – of not only form but experiences of limitations, time buffers between thought & manifestation, and the unproductive aspects of duality – and the 4th, in which Time is far more Present Moment/Now, ego takes a back seat to the Heart, and we cease to imagine things we don’t want!  The 5th dimension of Balance and Joy seems more possible, even at times accessible… and isn’t that a great way to live!

The Eden events of the past 10 years gave way this year to the first Children of Light conference, held in June in Aurora, CO (yes, we drove away just as the huge fires began in Colorado Springs).  During that marvelous gathering, we were treated to the Divine Presence shining out through the eyes and smiling face of Dougji, Oneness giver trained at the Oneness University in India, to diksha (deeksha) from several persons associated with the Oneness University, and to a new Wholeness Blessing, brought & shared by Joe Crane, who created the Eden events through contact with Archangel Michael.  I had already been given transmission capacity for diksha through Sai Maa years ago, so now I am blessed to have even more ways to share healing energies with any who request or allow it!

And I am pleased with our measurable progress in continuing to build & upgrade our infrastructure here at the Ashram/Retreat Center, so that we will indeed be ready to be open for business in 2013!  The Abode of the Divine Feminine – my personal sanctuary and a round, kiva-like structure – is now my part-time habitation and full-time creative space, and I am so grateful for it!  Thanks to Kevin for so much time spent in construction over the past 2+ years!

Of course, there is more… there will be a 2nd greenhouse soon, and a small micro-nursery business propagating houseplants for gifts and decor, to be shared at the local Farmers Market in 2013 and beyond.  All of the cabins are being insulated for longer-season use, and they are also getting a facelift, as well shift from a site-wide tan & green color scheme to a festive range of bright colors, beginning with the new Retreat Office, in plum & thistle.  This is what comes of letting the inner child out and giving her free rein around here…  🙂

I refer you to the writings of Jim Self as he articulates his understanding of the shift that we have been going through the past months & years – I find his descriptions [on Mastering Alchemy.com] to be clear and readable, and encourage you to check them out.

We’re starting to plan a celebration here, for September – our 10th anniversary, the 7th year of operation as a retreat center, the equinox, and the run-up to / the final quarter before December 2012 [and whatever happens between now & then, around then, and afterwards].  If you are in the area, you are invited (please RSVP first, though!) For all of us, it is good to be gentle with ourselves, particularly during this Mercury retrograde (until August 7).  Be open, and calmly alert, and take some time to consider how much your own personal world has changed the past year, my Friends.

Blessiing you to feel Peace in your mind and Joy in your hearts… Namaste!